So, big changes are afoot in my workplace. We are massively expanding our services and will be absorbing several dozen of a pharmaceutical client's employees who are about to get pink slips (apparently, it's more economical to bring them back in as contractors, which may or may be true, but whatever). All of this is scheduled to happen while I am on maternity leave. Whew.
Except....that when I get back in January, it will basically be a whole new company. New faces, new reporting structure, and room for further growth as new management is needed to corral all the new direct reports. This is where my budding mama instincts are at odds with my developed-over-decades career ambition.
I am on a short list to be considered for a management position. I have been since I joined the company a little over a year ago, because A) I am good at what I do (*ahem*) and B) I have prior relevant management experience. Many of my colleagues who are jockeying for position meet criterion A but not B. So, I have an advantage. But, lo!, the timing.
Clearly, I am a poor match for any immediate positions because, yo, I have to birth a baby and such. But I have inside information that additional management positions are intended to be created and filled in a few months or so, coinciding perfectly with my return to work. I have all the skillz. I haz the ambition. But is it right?
I don't really know the answer. I firmly believe that, especially after all the sacrifices I made to get pregnant and to have this baby, I deserve complete fulfillment, and that includes career development and job satisfaction. I also happen to believe that being a working mother with career goals is not incompatible with caring for my family. In fact, I think it sets a right nice example to my son or daughter that mama brings home the bacon, too. I could tell myself at any stage of my child's life, "not now, s/he is only ___ weeks/months/years old and needs me," but I think there is truthfully no time at which my kid won't need me. It will always be a balancing act, no matter what my job responsibilities are. So, why let an opportunity pass me by as I wait for the mythical "perfect" time to act on a career opportunity that may not materialize again?
So, I am applying for the promotion. I may or may not get an interview for this round, and certainly will be passed over due to the timing of the open positions and the current state of my ute. But maybe I'll be considered for the next round. Gotta strike while the iron's hot. Gotta hope this is the right thing.